Hellhole -

Jadi dalam beberapa hari lagi
aku akan kembali ke sana
ke tempat yang dulu menjanjikan macam macam.

Selepas beberapa ketika macam macam itu
tinggal menjadi
yet another alfresco dining
emotional shopping because I have sworn celibacy for everything else,even if I didnt,I'd pass most of it
sleepless nights
sleepless nights
nangis berhari hari berkali kali
air mata,air mata darah,darah,dalam ertikata sesungguhnya,not metaphysically


and
that incredible feeling of nothingness like anything could just happen,
boom ka poof
and
you just go on
like robots like factory zombies like dogs like

an unloved person.